the day following, the junior high retreat at qwanoes began, during which i served as a counsellor. i was really blessed to have three campers from my church back home in my cabin, as well as one of my campers from this summer. and! i was really blessed to be ambushed at midnight the first night (my birthday) by justin and jeremy, who led my cabin on a middle-of-the-night adventure that ended in pizza and mcdonald's and a group of kaleos and friends wishing me a happy birthday. it was so great.
and then came the morning, and i was sick as junk. i don't even know where it came from, but i spent my entire birthday sleeping essentially. not going to lie, i think it was a gift. i wasn't actually too choked; while physical circumstance wasn't ideal, my heart was still golden from the night before, aided by the large amount of great friends from church back home who were serving on the retreat as well.
and now we're starting old testament literature! today was our first day, and it was great. the prof is rad, and the lectures are really interesting. i honestly wasn't expecting to like it this much, but i'm already understanding why many former kaleos have called it their favourite course. this is sweet.
on a personal note, i think the time is soon advancing for me to share my story. it's becoming an increasing frustration and a heavier burden day-by-day; last night i got ridiculously little sleep, feeling more than heavy-hearted for the lack of things i've vocalized, for the things i've shied from or swept under the rug with this group. to be perfectly honest, this needs to change. i need these walls gone, i need to be legit. i don't know that it's ever been so hard, but i don't know that it'll ever have been more worth it. that's my way of asking for prayer, friends.
ps. it wouldn't be matthew newton's blog without a plug for whatever album just came out. hello hurricane, by switchfoot. amazing. go get it. right now.
praying..
ReplyDeleteps. I really wish I could write like you :)