the song "breathe" by anberlin has quickly become my prayer for this year, and for my life. i first heard it back after we hiked mount albert-edwards, and it talked of freedom and surrender and hope and i didn't connect with it, probably because i wasn't feeling those things on that trip, or in the time following. but i've been feeling them now, tasting them now. the part of me that has yet to feel this, that still feels stuck, is restless and would greatly appreciate your prayers. things for me aren't quite as resolved as they are for whoever wrote this song, but i've been glimpsing resolution and desire it with everything i've got in me. please be praying for these things, for this freedom and surrender, that the civil war in my heart would be replaced with peace, and that true revolution could occur. above all, that i wouldn't be hiding things anymore (i've gotten so much better at this lately, but it's an awkward and uncomfortable thing and before i know it i'm varying back and forth from transparent to guarded again), and that i could breathe and find such freedom in Him. maybe these blogs have gotten more personal lately but maybe that's part of not hiding things anymore.
this is surrender to a war-torn life i've lived. scars and stripes, forever in need of change i can't resist.
no need to hide anything anymore; can't return to who i was before.
i can finally breathe, suddenly alive. i can finally move, the world feels revived.
this long of a struggle finally opened up my eyes. revolution's not easy with a civil war on the inside.
no need to hide anything anymore; i can't return to who i was before.
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